If it’s uncomfortable, it’s you

A couple weeks ago, Jonathan asked in the slack channel to the other team members our opinion on something; as usual I disagreed with the rest, and they made fun about how I’m always the devil’s advocate. I tend to be quite opinionated, so that’s something I couldn’t disagree with.

I laughed about it, but a little part of me felt uncomfortable, and I asked myself ‘Why Helena? Why you always disagree with the rest?’

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Right after finishing work that day, I had an appointment with my therapist, so I told him the anecdote to crack the session on, and he said: ‘That sense of feeling uncomfortable is a sign that tells you that you’re being yourself’

It may sound a little cheesy, but this change of perspective, reminded me the importance of sticking to your beliefs no matter what.

No matter what if later you realise it wasn’t that right.
No matter what if causes and awkward silence or a no-reply.
No matter what if what comes next is not an applause.

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And if this matters to me is because back in the past I always used to be that shy kid on the corner, afraid of what people would say or think of me if I raise my voice way too much.

But in my search for discomfort, I've found that sometimes it's worth being a little loud, shaking the room, saying something nonsensical, being a little dramatic, and even a tad intense. Because even though it can be embarrassing, clumsy, or 'too much,' that's who I really am.

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Thanks for reading!

As part of my other project, I’ve interviewed my friend Daniel and we had a very nice conversation that you may like here

Yours,

H.