Love is for the long run
I’m back home for Christmas, and this time, I was kind of feeling homesick in the two weeks leading up to coming back. I couldn’t help but keep rewinding this past year, trying to find a simple way to define how it has been, and the word that keeps coming to my mind is: love.
Exactly one year ago, I was here, thinking about how bored I had become with this project, considering stopping it and starting something new… and somehow I did.
Once I decided to stop doing the newsletter, I felt like I had to start a new project just as the new year was about to begin. That’s what I’ve been doing all these past years: initiating self-projects that I would never finish or continue for long.
It’s kind of easy to kick off things; you're carried by the dopamine rush a new fresh idea gives you… but because of that, it’s also easy to quit halfway through and start something else because it’s more stimulating than sticking to something for longer.
It’s not just self-projects, it’s everything: relationships that you start and, when they get tough, you just end; jobs that get tedious and make you think about surrendering and leaving; new skills that take a learning process that becomes too painful and boring to stand… and on and on.
Now that the new year is about to begin, we are bombarded with the idea of making a list of resolutions, a list with commitments or new things to do and try. I used to love this and take the chance to start something new, but not this time.
After experiencing this year heartbreak, rejection, doubt, and pain in different areas of my life, I’ve come to realize that there are a few things I would stick to no matter what, things I love too much; so, I’d rather commit and cultivate those even when they get tedious and tough, than starting new stories I’d eventually run away from.
I just need to remind myself that, when things get hard, when I’d like to quit, above all, love is there; stronger than the dopamine of a fresh new project, relationship, or adventure; stronger than the thrill of the unknown; love is always there, because love is for the long run
Thanks for reading!
Hope you have a wonderful christmas and a lovely start to the new year.
Yours,
H.